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13 May 2014, 04:03
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12 May 2014, 09:42
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07 May 2014, 08:39
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Day 52 Fast day
by jmousey on 12 Nov 2013, 10:25
So I am writing this with a confession of sorts. I did a fast day yesterday but my stomach is in ribbons. I know what caused it- drinking on an empty stomach. My drinking has been causing me a level of anxiety over the last couple of years as while I don't feel the need to drink every day and I'm happy to go out and socialise without drinking occassionally, there are too many times where it is getting out of control due to my social life - not at home or anything. I had 13 weddings this year and million 30ths and I have to get real. I am spending most of my Sundays hungover and that can extend into MOndays. Now I have hurt my stomach-not by over consumtion on this occassion, but saving calories for alcohol. I know we all do it but I have 3 alcoholic uncles on 1 side, 1 is dead, my grandfather is an alcoholic on the other side. I have an addictive personality and if I don't watch myself, I'm afraid I'll end up having to give up alcohol altogether. My goal is to know when to stop - obviuosly there will be times when you over do it. I want to break the habit of it being every time I'm out on a night out. A family member spoke to me about it to say they were concerned I would end up on the same path if I wasn't careful and I have to be responsible before it's too late - brought up by the fact that this ulcer appeared. I love nothing more than sharing a glass of wine with OH on Fri & Sat night. But at every wedding I pay no attention, or dinner or night out etc. I can easily drink a whole bottle of wine if not 1.5bottles. If that was only rare then it would be fine, but in fact it's almost every second week. In fact, I don't majorly go above my units eveyr week or anything like it and I am not an alcoholic. However, I could become one if my habits don't change so I'm going to be proactive.
I will not have any alcohol this weekend- afirst for me. I've already bought cinema tickets for a late showing Sat night and will go to a fast food joint for food. I never drink on Sundays coz of work and I don't drink Fridays usually because I run early. I won't drink this Friday either because of my stomach but also I will run. The week after is my birthday and if rawkaren can control herself then she is an inspiration. I am going for dinner on Friday, my birthday, and I will have 1 bottle of low alcohol beer, 2 glasses of wine at dinner and if we go for a drink after, another low alcohol beer. The next day is a weekend away with the girls and usually that would be me on a mad one. I will have a low alcohol beer at lunch, 2 glasses of wine with dinner and then stick to bottles of low alcohol beer for the night. This will be a major challenge as the people I am with in my room will be on mad ones. Another option is to do white wine spritzers. Finally, on the sunday, my parents are coming for dinner with my brothers. I will have 3 glasses of wine. Now I know that that is the equivalent of a lot of alcohol for one weekend - but for a weekend like that usually I would have a lot more and not be out of place in the company I am in. I hope to stick around the 14 recommended units. If I go a little over, I won't kill myself but I'm not going to guzzle a bottle or 1.5bottles of wine each night which is what I would usually do on a weekend like that. It's a very hard and shaming realisation that you have to do something like this but I never want to end up like my uncles. And if I'm lucky enough to have kids, I don't want them to grow up in house where their parent is not hungover every weekend.
My fast day went well yesterday despite the fact that my stomach actually needs food to combat the acid levels in it.
12pm: 250g natural yogurt (200), wafer thin ham (100)
4pm: coconut water (50)
So 350 cals aint bad and not even very hungry. I regard yesterady as a mentally very tough day but I'm hoping this is a turnaround and wakeup call I needed. I give the day 7/10 as I'm optomistic but scared about the future
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