Hello girls!
So good to catch up with you Shelley @johns - I'd been wondering where you had gone. Glad to have you back....and thank you for your lovely post. Please go easy on yourself, you human being you! We are trying to break habits that have been going on a long time, so slip ups are to be expected from time to time...and definitely aren't the end of the world. It's what you do afterwards that matters...Please keep posting whenever you can as it's great to hear from you...
Hey @candicemarie - so sorry you are not feeling great at the moment....here's a hug for you
Thank you also for your very kind words. My last post rambled on so much, I forgot to write in more detail about the strange things that were happening to me - sorry for being so cryptic. What I meant to expand upon was the change that has come about in me (so far...and please let it be more than just a flash in the pan) with regard to food choices. Nobody could like their food more than me. And their biscuits....cake...chocolate and so on. I ate to distraction and without any brakes...and certainly with no thought for the future. For 8 weeks I went cold turkey...and now what's happening? I'm finding I can't let myself stop. I'm finding myself turning down foods I thought I would pounce on immediately after stopping the BSD. I can't stop...and believe me, that is a very strange happening! There is something in me that will not let go now.
I've been out today, on a trip to Bristol to see Chicago. I sat in the theatre this afternoon, eating my yoghurt and strawberries (i.e. lunch) whilst all around me were scoffing Lindor chocolates (variety box including my utter favourite, a hazelnut one!). It didn't even cross my mind to accept one when offered...for later/tomorrow/next week. Nope, all I could think about was sugar spikes! This is soooooo not me....After the show, we all went off to our usual haunt for dinner: Za Za Bazaar - an all-you-can-eat establishment offering cuisines from around the world...and chips! And prawn crackers. And peshwari naan bread. And chocolate torte and Mr Whippy ice cream........"Ooh, where do I start?" I thought to myself, "Let me at 'em!" So...I take a walk around all the various food on offer...& even stop to say a wistful hello to the peshwari naans as I walked by..before ending up at the stir-fry station. Meekly, I select my raw ingredients...red pepper, onion, mushroom, carrot...no noodles of any sort....and there were lots of sorts on offer. The chef does his stuff - including flicking out a number of my mushroom slices in his enthusiasm for theatrical cooking! He adds a few prawns and some chicken to the mix...and before I know it, the food's done. I add some king prawns and broccoli to my plate & go back to the table to devour it...delicious! Before I leave anyone with the impression that I am some kind of saint...I might add that I then got up and filled another plate (small though!) with veg and protein...and ate until I felt full...then left the rest. What???? Didn't clear the plate? Are you mad??? Well, I must be! For I did not even consider having any pudding - not even my favourite chocolate torte! Will the real Pernelle please stand up?! Strange things are happening to me.......
I've fallen asleep about 6 times whilst writing this - so I'm going to have to write more tomorrow. Sorry...and night night! Xx