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12 Jul 2013, 07:52
Drawing a line ...
07 Jul 2013, 11:23
That was the week that was ...
06 Jul 2013, 20:07
Cake!
04 Jul 2013, 13:33
Three in a row
02 Jul 2013, 21:09
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Hope this week is kinder too you.
Xx
5:2 is helping me with the physical act of eating, but blogging and reflecting on the last week has helped me think more about the psychological aspect of over-eating. When I get stressed I am going to try to go for a walk rather than head to the cake tin!
It's been a funny old week ...
by Moptop on 23 Jun 2013, 20:34
Today, my resolve was back and I liquid fasted until 6.30pm when I ate a calorie counted prepared salad from M&S. it feels good to be back in control - and although I am still hungry I know it's an emotional hunger rather than a lack-of-food hunger.
I am going to fast tomorrow as well - for me, the second day is always easier than the first day of fasting. My stomach grumbles in a much more subdued manner.
So, analysis time: why did I blow my week so spectacularly? I think my emotions are riding high - I am upset and angry. My husband is doing his usual passive-aggressive thing and sending me to Coventry (any excuse will do for a sulk). There is so much I want to say to him but twice now I've been told to '**** off' - so there's no point in trying to have a conversation. I KNOW this from past experience - but past experience has shown me how I have habitually tried to silence my anger and distress with food. Stuff my gob full of junk and I'll stifle the words.
Yup - I'm not thinking about this as I type and yet I feel like I've just had an epiphany - I was in self-destruct food-wise because I was allowing my emotions to control my appetite. I need to lose the anger - again, past experience shows that it doesn't achieve anything at all with 'im indoors and I cannot change his behaviour - but I can change my response to it.
Here's to a less self-destructive week.