If I hadn't been for 5:2 I wouldn't be saying that. I would still be waiting and waiting and waiting.
Tomorrow I get up at 4am, have a shower then drive 2 hours to the specialist spinal hospital where I will be having one of the disks in my neck removed and the spine fused to stop the ongoing neurological problems I have because of a disk prolapse. The disk had the back luck to squish inward crushing my spinal cord. Its been getting slowly worse, I haven't been able to drive a car for well over a year now, if I'm a passenger in a car I have to pile on the painkillers and wear a neck brace to travel anywhere, even if its just to the local shops. I am losing the feedback from my feet and legs resulting in frequent stumbles and falls and I have permanent paresthesia (I think that's how you spell it), where my outer finger are numb, and my hands feel as if they have been dipped in nettles. When its bad it feels as if someone is drawing a knife down the length of my arms over and over again. All because the brain can't interpret the messed up signals its getting, so it interprets it as pain or weirdness.
If I have the operation I am risking (small risk) a stroke, permanent paralysis from the shoulders down, changes in my voice, death even etc. etc. On the flip side is near certain, eventual paralysis from the shoulders down. The small risk is the better one now. To say I am terrified is an understatement. I am also resigned to the necessity of it. Weirdly enough I am also looking forward to some decent sleep as I haven't slept well for months.
So, I am thankful to 5:2, fasting and this forum for helping me to get below morbidly obese. For encouraging me to go to the gym and getting my blood pressure down to 110/70 (for a woman of my age and weight, its amazing) and for keeping me fasting even though I have hit a massive plateau. Due to various reasons, one of which is the medications I'm on make you put on weight, plus stress and lack of sleep all play their part in lack of weight loss. At least I have maintained and not put on weight.
I probably won't be in any fit state to pop on here for a while, probably at least a week. But when I do, I am going to get back on the fasting wagon and work on the rest of the weight. Thank you all.
XXX Julie
Tomorrow I get up at 4am, have a shower then drive 2 hours to the specialist spinal hospital where I will be having one of the disks in my neck removed and the spine fused to stop the ongoing neurological problems I have because of a disk prolapse. The disk had the back luck to squish inward crushing my spinal cord. Its been getting slowly worse, I haven't been able to drive a car for well over a year now, if I'm a passenger in a car I have to pile on the painkillers and wear a neck brace to travel anywhere, even if its just to the local shops. I am losing the feedback from my feet and legs resulting in frequent stumbles and falls and I have permanent paresthesia (I think that's how you spell it), where my outer finger are numb, and my hands feel as if they have been dipped in nettles. When its bad it feels as if someone is drawing a knife down the length of my arms over and over again. All because the brain can't interpret the messed up signals its getting, so it interprets it as pain or weirdness.
If I have the operation I am risking (small risk) a stroke, permanent paralysis from the shoulders down, changes in my voice, death even etc. etc. On the flip side is near certain, eventual paralysis from the shoulders down. The small risk is the better one now. To say I am terrified is an understatement. I am also resigned to the necessity of it. Weirdly enough I am also looking forward to some decent sleep as I haven't slept well for months.
So, I am thankful to 5:2, fasting and this forum for helping me to get below morbidly obese. For encouraging me to go to the gym and getting my blood pressure down to 110/70 (for a woman of my age and weight, its amazing) and for keeping me fasting even though I have hit a massive plateau. Due to various reasons, one of which is the medications I'm on make you put on weight, plus stress and lack of sleep all play their part in lack of weight loss. At least I have maintained and not put on weight.
I probably won't be in any fit state to pop on here for a while, probably at least a week. But when I do, I am going to get back on the fasting wagon and work on the rest of the weight. Thank you all.
XXX Julie
