My progress down the weight ladder has been arduous and slow.
Over the last few months, I have tripped a few times, given up in despair and started again. I now fast 3x a week, though I am less strict on the 3rd fasting day.
I find myself today 25lbs / 11.3kg lighter than I was when I first started this WoE last August.
Still a long way to go.
No major WoopWoop, but definite progress. The fact that I have had my thyroid gland removed and rely on thyroxine tablets might also help explain the slow speed of the weight loss.
But yesterday Mr Keihira brought some really, really nice sourdough bread home, and I ate a whole baguette by myself, with a thick layer of Gorgonzola and some sweet smoked ham. The tomatoes on the side were more for show than anything!
Then I had a large, flaky pastry with my coffee, and I though "in for a penny, in for a pound", and I opened the packet of crackers which had been teasing me all week and I ate the lot whilst watching my Skyfall DVD, and I even had a glass of wine, too!
I stepped gingerly on the scales this morning, feeling sheepish and a bit angry with myself for undoing all my hard work of the last few months.
To my amazement, the scales read exactly the same weight they did on my usual weigh-in day two days ago.
No change.
None.
I had binged all afternoon, eaten loads of carbs, way, way more than usual, and this has had no ill-effect on my weight.
To say I'm ecstatic is putting it mildly!
I'm now wondering if I've been too hard on myself, not that I have been denying myself any type of food, but I have been strict, even on my non-fasting days.
My TDEE calculations allow up to 2200 cal (!) but I can barely bring myself to exceed 1500, even though I burn 500+ cal every day exercising.
Being lax about what I ate has led me to being obese, so it has been quite difficult to loosen the reins since starting this WoE.
So, what do I take from this?
For starters, I will continue to fast 3 days a week, 2 strict days at 500 cal and 1 more indulgent 7 or 800 cal.
Next, I will stop punishing myself for becoming obese.
Because that's what refusing myself the odd treat is: a punishment for having no self-control, for indulging, for becoming fat.
I have to step out of that mind-set and stop thinking I don't deserve to enjoy eating like slim people do. Like I did before.
Starting today.
Over the last few months, I have tripped a few times, given up in despair and started again. I now fast 3x a week, though I am less strict on the 3rd fasting day.
I find myself today 25lbs / 11.3kg lighter than I was when I first started this WoE last August.
Still a long way to go.
No major WoopWoop, but definite progress. The fact that I have had my thyroid gland removed and rely on thyroxine tablets might also help explain the slow speed of the weight loss.
But yesterday Mr Keihira brought some really, really nice sourdough bread home, and I ate a whole baguette by myself, with a thick layer of Gorgonzola and some sweet smoked ham. The tomatoes on the side were more for show than anything!
Then I had a large, flaky pastry with my coffee, and I though "in for a penny, in for a pound", and I opened the packet of crackers which had been teasing me all week and I ate the lot whilst watching my Skyfall DVD, and I even had a glass of wine, too!
I stepped gingerly on the scales this morning, feeling sheepish and a bit angry with myself for undoing all my hard work of the last few months.
To my amazement, the scales read exactly the same weight they did on my usual weigh-in day two days ago.
No change.
None.
I had binged all afternoon, eaten loads of carbs, way, way more than usual, and this has had no ill-effect on my weight.
To say I'm ecstatic is putting it mildly!
I'm now wondering if I've been too hard on myself, not that I have been denying myself any type of food, but I have been strict, even on my non-fasting days.
My TDEE calculations allow up to 2200 cal (!) but I can barely bring myself to exceed 1500, even though I burn 500+ cal every day exercising.
Being lax about what I ate has led me to being obese, so it has been quite difficult to loosen the reins since starting this WoE.
So, what do I take from this?
For starters, I will continue to fast 3 days a week, 2 strict days at 500 cal and 1 more indulgent 7 or 800 cal.
Next, I will stop punishing myself for becoming obese.
Because that's what refusing myself the odd treat is: a punishment for having no self-control, for indulging, for becoming fat.
I have to step out of that mind-set and stop thinking I don't deserve to enjoy eating like slim people do. Like I did before.
Starting today.