jackdaniels wrote: I binged on Thurs and Fri (chocolate bars/packs of sweets in the evenings etc) then i fasted yesterday totaling between 500-550 cals.
Today, i woke up and didnt feel hungry so thought i'd fast again today. It got to around 2:30pm and i started feeling hungry so had a yogurt then that splurged out of control and i totally lost it and eat everything in sight - i mean everything - cold sausages, yogurts, magnum, 3 club bars, bag of liqorice, 3 bowls of oats-so-simple with a load of honey in and jam, 2 hot chocolates, bag of hula hoops, bag of mini cheddars, whole cake (yes a whole cake loaf) .... i've probably missed something off the list! I stopped at around 4:30pm as i felt so sick...i actually had to sit next to the loo as i felt that sick and even now i still feel sick and am in bed lying down.
I now obviously feel upset with myself, i dont know why i do it and wonder if i have a problem? It is not just as easy as saying 'get a grip, don't do it' .... i cant help it! I am at my worst when in the house on my own which i was earlier. I do binge sometimes but i think this is the WORST EVER.
I was so pleased this morning when i stepped on the scales and i'd lost 3 Ibs from my fast yesterday and my stomach was way flatter and now i know that when i get on the scales in the morning i will be 1/2 stone plus what i was this morning.
I've tried to walk to work in the mornings totally 6.2 miles altogether but what's the point if all i'm going to do is binge! Why do i do it ...!!
Sorry, just needed to talk...
Hi JD, I've cottoned onto this post a little late I think, but I would highly recommend keeping a food diary and logging emotions/feelings that happen as and when they happen along with any food you've eaten. You'll find that they're intrinsically linked. What we eat/how we feel after, and how we feel/what we eat as a result. You'll find that you will get better at recognising your emotions as time goes on, and you'll be better able to recognise a binge trigger and have a much higher chance of preventing it from happening.
I know it sounds like hassle and you might think you already know what your diary will say, but by writing it down you will have a permanent record of how eating X made you feel Y and it makes controlling your eating a whole lot easier when you recognise what's going on inside your mind and body. I also have a troubled relationship with sugar and struggle to have sugary foods in the house for any length of time before I end up gorging on them. It might help to make those foods less easily accessible so that you can't just make a snap decision to binge.
I hope you are feeling more upbeat now and remember that we all have to make mistakes or else we'd have nothing to learn from