Thank you all for your brilliant replies and for caring enough to reply at such length. It makes me feel so much better.
I should tell you that I am a type A personality who is a workaholic and very self critical and driven. As a youngster I had no interest in food as eating was a waste of time. My adult weight was 71/2 stone and I worked from the moment I woke and put on my 4" heels until about midnight when I took them off and crashed out for 6 hours. I didn't eat much and what I did eat was burned off anyway. Fine until I did so well at my job and in my mid 30's got to the top of the tree and a job which took me off my feet and at a desk, a job which was very wrong for me and very stressful. Add ageing parents and getting married, which added to the workload as we had a quite high status social life, and I started to struggle. I discovered that food and drink were a consolation. The weight started to go on and I hated it. i struggled for 10 years and the weight went up to 12 1/2 stone which was dreadful for me. Finally , when I was 49, I burnt out completely and had to give up work. I was put on medication which piled on more weight and I ended up at 15 1/2 stone. After 3 years I took myself off the medication and managed in the next two years to lose 5 stone. However I was left with CFS which is the bane of my life and hard to come to terms with as it is so contrary to my personality, I still want everything done yesterday. I constantly struggle with my weight and so want to get it under control again and really beat myself up that I just can't do it (did I mention I am also a control freak?)
So, thank you for your kind words and wisdom. Please stay with me, I really need you!
By the way, my hair is the only young thing about me these days. I am blessed by good genes which keep it brown even though it should have been silver years ago (I am now 67). It saves me a fortune at the hairdressers!!!
Thank you so much,