Good morning, everyone!
Thank you so much for all of your kind and thoughtful replies. I had a horrible night's sleep. At one point thought I was going to throw up. I even got up and tossed out the rest of the bottle of wine I'd been drinking. Yuck. No more. And as I mentioned early, I put all the "bad" food in a shopping bag last night and delivered it to a friend. I am so glad to have temptations out of the house.
To answer some questions --
mariposa -- Yes, shopping on fast days is a complete disaster. Lesson learned. I will only bring a pinch of money with me to the grocery store and only buy what is on my list next time.
Golarne -- did you binge, too, yesterday? Poor you, if you felt anything like me. I am doing a semi-fast today to get rid of what is in my gut.
Coffeecat -- Distraction is a great idea, unfortunately I work from home.
Carorees -- Why did I binge? No mystery there. I know exactly why. 1) because I love cheese and crackers and cookies and can't be around them without eating them till they are gone. It is just my nature. 2) because I started drinking in the evening, and alcohol makes me (and most people) overeat. 3) because I recently took on some freelance writing projects. As anyone who writes knows, you do all kinds of crazy things (scrub the bathtub, wash the dog, eat whatever is in sight) to avoid writing. In my case, I was eating, eating, eating.
BBT053 --- I appreciate your concerns, but no, I am not too thin. I have actually lost only a small amount of weight on 5:2 and most people haven't commented or noticed the difference. During my annual physical, my doctor noted that I had gained weight over the last year and suggested I lose it. Not much, but my weight was definitely going up and up and we don't want that to become a trend, especially at my age (50). I'm not anorexic, nor have I ever been. My BMI is 120.
Contrary to what some may think, when you are thin, the weight does not come spilling off you when you do 5:2. It comes off very very slow, maybe a quarter of a pound a week, and I believe at some point, you do reach some type of equilibrium. Some people who eat well on feast days, don't lose any weight!
Again, thanks everyone for your kind support. I am so grateful to be a part of this forum.
Cheers,
Rufus